Surely... Nzi

Surely... Nzi

01 August 2016 » Surely... Nzi

Standing in the spray of the founts around Jomo's statue...things I have taken for granted...Today I stop and stand.I want to kick off these heels,But this is not holy ground.I know, it's weird. I'm standing here, all by myself, with people rushing out the gate beyond,in black and red.But I'm waiting,For the occasional wind to turn the spray in my direction,And cover me with tiny cold droplets,Of falling water, Listening to the sound,I could sleep to this,Surrounded by my heart,Those who hold...

26 January 2016 » Surely... Nzi

'...and we have a puncture, Mum', Robe said...'What!''When did you see it!?''Which wheel!? ''Woi, and you are telling me now...?' I groaned as we ate our ice-cream. It was late but Aunty Koki had loudly suggested ice-cream in the hearing of several sweet-toothed people so we had to.Thankfully, when we got to Lucy her front passenger wheel was alright and so were the rest. The front wheel on the driver's side may need a bit of pressure...' But I've driven in worse condition tires and had to...

08 July 2015 » Surely... Nzi

I slid down the column and sat on my heels. The seat that I had taken two steps towards was quickly occupied by the man. He did not even bother to take look in my direction, but then competition for the seats was high...There were 6 seats for the close to 30 or so people standing around in the corridor or jostling at the door held slightly open by the court bailif.I had walked in circles to find this court number 9. I found 7 and 8, then turned a corner and came to a dead end.'It's in that...

20 December 2014 » Surely... Nzi

Buy me those flowers…while I can stil bury my nose in their petals, and smile in the mist of their sweet scent.Give me that hug, real and present…while I can yet wrap my arms around you and be with you in that moment.Kiss me, while I can still lift my head, and close my eyes, and smile at the gentleness of your touch.Bring me that scent, that you’d like me to wear…while I can still spray it in the air, and walk through the shower of misty droplets and feel as the fall lightly on me...and think...

18 November 2014 » Surely... Nzi

So I ran to the office and asked Julius to Google and find me a recording studio, 'I must sing today!' I said… and he did! And we called and I wanted to go right away but their programmer was not in...Drat!So we booked for the next day, '...be here by 10am!' she said. I was there at 10am and the programmer was still in....Pipeline!!!!I really wanted to do this so I agreed to come back at 1pm. (no, I hardly got any work done that day...) but it was great.On the way there, I found a little kitty...

17 July 2014 » Surely... Nzi

Having walked all the way from Upperhill, all I wanted to do was kick of my heels and take a large much of HLG, my throat had been acting up all day and the undecided weather did not help...nor did the dust along the way.I was wearing my hot black jeggings (need another pair asap) and blue top, bright pink sweater and ever since I decided I was going to be nicely dressed all the time (that was the day before when this client walked into my office and I felt...ummmm, what's that word...drab...

19 May 2014 » Surely... Nzi

Tall,Dark,Grey!I know, you'd think I'm too old to sport greyBut guess what? I do.It don't mean I'm old,'No child, I'm not a Guka'It's just that I'm meAnd if you bothered to look beyond the grey, You'd see, that I am actuallyTall, Dark,Handsome,And grey.'Punguza sana' I told the barber.Two weeks after the last haircut...The grey is still showing.Damn! I thought I had gotten used to their comments by now!Repeat after me...I am tall...I am tall!I am dark...I am dark!I am handsome...I am handsome!I...

11 March 2014 » Surely... Nzi

1. Walk down the aisle, jumping across outstretched legs, hoping not to step on one as you make you're way towards the dark empty couches at the back.2. Laugh at the man stretched out on  the chairs...he must think he's already home...ama it's the darkness?3. Settle down and think, 'Should I lie down or just behave myself?'4. Reach into the dark recesses of your bag and find the mandazi and sausage you bought from Apondoz. Acknowledge that this is becoming a habit and promise yourself not to do...

05 March 2014 » Surely... Nzi

When I walked into Java on Koinange street a second time, it was because I had decided that I would review the place, spread the word and tell on them!I chose a different seat this time, the empty couch on the side under the large painting of a street lined with houses; on the first house hung a sign written in Chinese, Japanese, Portuguese, smelling cheese... I hoped that now, in my bright pink sweater, and in the middle of the room, I might be noticed sooner by the good waitresses.My previous...

03 March 2014 » Surely... Nzi

I can’t stand the way the world is grovelling at her feet,as she smiles and posesIn amazing swathes of brightly coloured fabricStitched into awe inspiring silhouettesIn the moody light of the famous fashion photographers’ studiosI can’t stand her accentThat is no longer familiar,As she does interview after interview,Talking about her role, her grasp, her expression,…her potential Oscar!That would be too much, Me thinks.If such an amateur, (in the whispering eyes of the Stars),Should hold up...

25 February 2014 » Surely... Nzi

I am angry!I am so mad right now.I want to cry. I want to sit at a corner, hold myself and cry! Not muffled sobs that no one will hear,  but loud screams, heart wrenching and body shaking screams! I want to throw myself on the ground and stand up and throw myself down again and again….if only to take the pain away.My heart aches. My soul cries out.For every child and every woman, with child or in their sunset years. For every single woman and child who had to experience Westgate. For every...

12 February 2014 » Surely... Nzi

It's just about 9:30am and the train slows down and comes to a shuddering halt. The passengers look at each other, eyes wide open, questioning...slightly alarmed. They twist their necks to look out of the window...to the sight of filthy  children playing in the mud, to the piles of garbage and idlers puffing clouds of smoke into the air,To a tall dark man in a dark green short sleeved kaunda suit, walking slowly along the railway track.Drat! Damn! How can we kwama in the middle of the slum!...

19 September 2013 » Surely... Nzi

We were seated like regular patrons of the ancient restaurant.Neglected and leaking from the lighting fixturesNeglected, I must add, because if it wasn't, I wouldn't be shocked at the stream of water pouring from the light fixture (yes, the electricity, the water....) on the far ceiling of the restaurant nor would I have been aghast at the sight of a rat scurrying across the stained and rugged old, grey, cement floor that had counted endless footsteps in and out of the small, old, cob-webby...

19 September 2013 » Surely... Nzi

I beat Guka (the cock that hangs out with my chicken) to waking up having set my alarm for five thirty a.m, today, March 4, 2013, Election Day Kenya. I finally jumped into the car a few minutes after 6am and drove off to find this 'borehole' - lucky I overheard a neighbour mention the change in venue. (I had registered just up the road and as far as I know, the place is not known as ‘borehole’...in fact, I have never heard of this ‘borehole’. In my sleepy mind, I was sure that I would walk in,...

23 August 2013 » Surely... Nzi

"You hurt him!You hurt him!You messed up his life!You Devil!"I screamed as I drove down the highway at 140KPH..."And now we have to live with the agony of watching him suffer the torture of the never fading-never relenting memory of what you did! You are dead now! And I wish you could die again!" I whimpered as I fell back exhausted and slowed down the car, see, I really did not want to kill myself.The pain, the anger, the bouts of self doubt and depression...Were you thinking when you did this...

16 March 2013 » Surely... Nzi

It was exactly 17 days ago.I have wanted to write about this crazy experience for a while now, but I had not, till now, gathered the courage to remember in vivid detail and colour what happened early that Wednesday morning.See, I had planned to do a re-shoot for my short video, "A day in the life of.." this time, my subject was a train driver. I know, why a train? What's wrong with driving a truck! Or a bus! Even a matatu! My first interview had backfired, sort of...the camera I was using to...

09 March 2013 » Surely... Nzi

CONGRATULATIONS!We have peacefully left the past behind and not let it dictate our future as we elected the 4th president of the republic.God bless Kenya!Now, back to reality.The Jubilee government audaciously re-imagined a brand new Kenya and dared to dream afresh.This is what they promised to start doing in the 1st 100 days of the Jubilee government (among other promises that I shall keep at regularly).That measures will be taken to make Kenya a fairer healthier and better educated country by...

17 January 2013 » Surely... Nzi

My 'maiden ride' on the Syoki train was fantastic! I called my regular bodaboda guy who picked me up at my gate, and rode all the way, across Mombasa Road (something I had sworn I'd never ever do by bodaboda but that wasn't even on my mind,) time was ticking and the train was reputed to leave on the dot of time. (I did however control where and when he could zoom across the road while I held my heart in my mouth determined not to add to the numbers of road/bodaboda causality statistics)So I ran...

17 August 2012 » Surely... Nzi

Yesterday morning, I walked into the Nokia Care centre along the Hilton Hotel building, right across from Dedan's statue. The lighting was great, all bright white and blue, lots of space and four ladies seated in a row facing the door. One seat in front of the lady at the corner (she seemed older and bossier) was empty and I, with a smile on my face walking in happy to see no long winding queue marched right up to her and said Hi!Shock on me. The madam did not even bother to look up as she...

16 April 2012 » Surely... Nzi

This is what the statistics say:That child sexual abuse is defined as “the employment, use, persuasion, inducement, enticement, or coercion of any child to engage in, or assist any other person to engage in, any sexually explicit conduct or simulation of such conduct for the purpose of producing a visual depiction of such conduct; or the rape, and in cases of caretaker or inter-familial relationships, statutory rape, molestation, prostitution, or other form of sexual exploitation of children,...

25 July 2011 » Surely... Nzi

I hold my chubby 3 month old  in my arms, her eyes pure and white, her cheeks shiny and round. I look up to the TV, towards the sound of a child crying...the news anchor had warned that the images 'could be disturbing...There's a child sitting on her mother's lap, hanging limp from her mouth, is her mama's breast...she is so weak, sucking those few drops of milk will take more energy than she has...As I write this, I hold my baby to my breast. They are swollen full of milk. My feezer is full of...

22 July 2011 » Surely... Nzi

We happily took the son there. It was perfect! Close to home, a seemingly serious investment, built from scratch, interesting desks and lockers, based on Christian principles. It looked promising! And we thankfully enrolled young Robert there start of this year.I should have noticed the trend then...end of term one holidays there was talk of tuition...which was not compulsory. Come end of term two, we get a “Dear parents...” note, kindly telling us about some two weeks tuition after the school...

06 July 2011 » Surely... Nzi

By you Mr Speaker Sir.Really, I thought he was a fair, just and honest man...I am so disappointed! Who ever thought there'd come a day when there would be a choice between paying or not paying ones taxes? ...At least for the more equal among us!This 'paying taxes' issue is bringing out peoples' true colours. While the ones who think they are clever are using this as milage...Kwani you forget 2012 is some 6 months or so away? Hmph!

06 July 2011 » Surely... Nzi

If I invite you to a party at this ultra posh apartments, where, I'm guessing, all sorts of expensive alcoholic beverages and liquors are flowing and with a VIP guest to boot. Then we all proceed to get high as kites, you an a cocktail of the said alcoholic beverages and Almighty knows what else...then, at the height of your drunkeness and in a stupor no less, after making a nuisance of yourself breaking glasses, mirrors and whatever else that catches your fancy, I let you stagger out of the...

19 June 2011 » Surely... Nzi

I intended to grab a cart, a basket actually since all I wanted to get was cooking oil and...what was the other thing, oh yes, paper bags.So I ran up to the cooking oil section and fancifully looked at the prices of the 10 litre mutungi's...why not buy much and get over and done with it for the next couple of months, ama? The price tag on it was some three thousand and something shillings. I looked at the 20 litre mutungi just to see what it cost and it was six thousand shillings and some......

15 June 2011 » Surely... Nzi

Really, Kenyans, this is all our own doing. The nonsense going on in this country, from the lack of food situation the govt has refused to acknowledge, to the insecurity, corruption, child abuse, enviroment abuse, IDP situation, healthcare or lack thereof, falling buildings and football  drama, si DPP wa kimasai, si earing ya Chief Justice....need I continue?, is of our very own making. No, stop complaining. who elected these leaders anyways? Ok. You argue that it is not that simple. The lack...

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